I do not usually post things like this but it's been on my mind off and on. The fact that I feel that I cannot be honest on my own blog because it's not nice or proper or might hurt someone's feelings. I already guard my posts on FB and Insta just to be sure I do not harm anyone's delicate littler feelers. But I decided after getting bored enough to scroll TikTok that if people can make videos of what ever ails them, I can certainly post to a blog that nobody reads. I was married before. It lasted from 1990 to 2009. I was 18 when we got married and he was 38. He had two little boys that he had full custody of; we did not have children of our own. It started off all well and good, and full of hope but it did not stay that way. It was not a good marriage. Or at least the last 10 years of it was not. I know now, that for at least the last seven years of it my former spouse was cheating. Before that he was just a controlling narcissistic bully. I will call him